Check out my latest episode of “Evening Tea With Ki” titled “Purpose”.

As year 35 for me is rounding up I looked up my Angel Number message to see if it resonated with what I have gone through this year and it absolutely did.

I am looking forward to year 36 as I grow and evolve even further within my God Given talents and gifts!

I’m just grateful y’all!

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Hey Kilo Cares

Looking forward to next Spring and all the changes and blessings it’s bringing.

This years lesson for me was being ok feeling.

It’s ok to feel. I went a very long time not feeling anything so to feel again, ironically, feels good.

I was numb for a very long time out of fear. I never want to be numb again.

No matter what the “feel” is I want to feel it.

This year taught me I already have what I need in me to get through anything.

Decades after Marvin Gayes “What’s Going On” album and track, “Mercy Mercy Me” we are still dealing with the same turmoil and issues that plagued the times then.

I’m such an oldies gal. I love old school music. It’s literally everything. I can throw a record on and get lost in the lyrics and melody.

While listening to “Mercy Mercy Me” and hearing Marvin speak on Mercury being in fish, radiation in the ground & sky, extinct animals, I’m like damn is he singing about then or now.

Now is worst! Worst than ever before.

Have you ever looked at a chart analysis on extinct species over the years?

https://ourworldindata.org/extinctions

Per “Our World in Data”, over 35,000 species have been evaluated to be threatened by extinction TODAY.

I wonder how Marvin would feel about so much of our food being over processed and cloned now.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2213849/

Mercy Me indeed.

The Benefits of starting your morning off with a 8 ounce glass of Celery Juice is endless!

Celery is high in Vitamin K (and I mean K is for Kilo so you know it’s good for you!)

Vitamin K is a fat soluble vitamin that makes various proteins in your body that are needed for blood clotting and strengthening bone and tissue development.

Jumpstarts your digestive system!

Reduces inflammation in your body.

Relieves bloating: supports healthy gut flora to breakdown bad bacteria in your digestive system.

Liver and kidney supporting so it supports your skin and helps to eliminate acne issues, psoriasis, & eczema.

Y’all see these abs poking through! Ok now! Helps support weight loss!

Lowers cholesterol and blood pressure!

Healthy eating is healthy living!

Pour you up a glass today!

#heykilocares #celeryjuice #intentionalliving #herbalist #medicinalherbs #psoriasis #weightloss #bloatedbelly #acne #organicskincare #healingherbs

I believe I posted this before but I blog so much it’s loss in the sauce. So, here it is again!

I love mud water!!!! Even more than I loved coffee! You just got to mix and blend it to perfection and use OAT MILK!!!!

Mud water is a healthier alternative for coffee!

Filled up with healing adaptogenic mushrooms, herbs, & spices that actually support your entire body, especially your Endocrine System, unlike caffeine which actually overtime, will disrupt and create hormonal imbalances.

Ingredients:

(1teaspoon of each powdered mushroom) Lions Mane, Reishi, Chaga, & Cordyceps

1 tablespoon of Raw Cacao

1 tablespoon of Cinnamon

1 Teaspoon of Black Maca

1 Teaspoon if Licorice Root

1 Tablespoon of Ginger (I love it)

1 tablespoon of Nutmeg

1 teaspoon powdered Clove

1 teaspoon Pink Himalayan Salt

1 teaspoon Turmeric

Directions:

1. Mix all ingredients and store in jar, plastic bag, or air tight container.

2. Add two tablespoons of mix to a jar.

3. Add 4 ounces of hot water and stir till blended.

4. Add 8 ounces of Oat Milk (preferred). Put lid on jar, shake & enjoy.

If you want to add more Raw Cacao you most definitely can. I typically do about 2 tablespoons of it.

It’s absolutely delicious!

What do you do with your celery mash left over from juicing?

Make Tuna-less Salad!

Simple ingredients & super easy to make and doesn’t take long at all!

Ingredients:

8oz can of Organic Chickpeas

Half of onion chopped

Cup of Celery Mash

Two tablespoons of Vegan Mayo of your choice

Salt Free Seasonings: I prefer Mrs. Dash Southwest Seasoning, That’s Smart Garlic & Pepper Seasonings (let your ancestors guide your flicks of the wrist)

Enjoy with a Bag of @latejulyorganic Jalepeno Lime Tortilla Chips! They are Vegan Friendly and DELICIOUS!!!!

Happy Eating is Healthy Living y’all!

#heykilocares #vegan #intentionalliving #herbalist #medicinalherbs

Day 7, the final day of my cleanse and as this body fat is falling off of me, I’m realizing how I’m just going to stay eating like this!

Your body will NEVER burn fat as long as your insulin levels are HIGH.

Eating less sugar will suppress the insulin hormone in which your body will then have to burn fat.

Sugar in your bloodstream is like small particles of glass that cuts as it travels throughout your body signaling your bodies natural response to inflaming the area to prevent further harm to other tissues.

Thus causing over production of inflammation throughout your body.

Which this directly affects your Immune, Digestive, Nervous, and Endocrine System.

Eating less foods that are high in Sugars is key to good health.

Communication rules the Nation and saves relations, I can tell.

Today, on this New Moon/Total Eclipse in Sagittarius, I’ve been painstakingly faced with the realization that I suck at communicating with those that I love.

Anxieties have been running extremely high since my release of my “Pain” episode for my podcast, “Evening Tea With Ki”, my first DIY class is tomorrow, orders/prep work for my upcoming vending events, parenting, Wifing, & work. Y’all, I feel extremely overwhelmed.

So, to ground myself, I am taking a nice self love milk bath to relax my sore muscles and mind.

As I sit in this tub it dawned on me how frustrating I can be when it comes to communicating with those that I love. And how frustrated that I get that my love ones don’t always see when I am at a breaking point.

It’s really not on them to read my mind. It’s not fair for me to think they should be able to decipher my attitude as an outcry that I have too much on my plate and that I am running myself thin.

Especially if I’m constantly “acting” like Superwoman, how would they ever be able to tell that I am in need. I don’t voice it. I don’t show it. I don’t yell out for it, vocally or physically. I don’t even send up smoke signals.

I know someone out there can relate.

So, the clarity is that it’s me again, lacking communication skills because I truly have folks that care for me and want to see me, and my brands, succeed.

I’ve mentally compiled a list of things I need done:

1. I need a slumber party with my homegirls. My real homegirls. With healthy snacks, movies, and no chillren.

2. I need a massage. Like SOON.

3. When I go on vacation at the end of December, I’m going on vacation! Orders made from December 24th through January 4th will not be filled, worked on, or shipped out until AFTER January 5th. I’m exhausted y’all and my vending events haven’t even began!

4. Season 1 of “Evening Tea With Ki” will conclude on December 23rd, the anniversary of the day I cleared and connected with my Higher Self/reconnected with my Mama. It’ll mark a year and I feel like, that’ll be full circle you know. A growth check to say the least.

5. I need to take my Husband on an official Date Night and show him the Appreciation that he deserves. He sees me at my “highs” and my very “lows” and he tries so hard to be there for me even while he’s under immense pressure himself. I love you and I appreciate you. I guarantee I’ll be alright.

6. Take photos with the kids while we are on vacation. We have no group photos and I don’t like that.

7. Have a Sister date with my Sisters. 3 are here and we need to do better hanging out in 2022. I don’t want to wait until then to do so either. I want to start now.

8. I’m hosting an ugly sweater party at my house and I want my close friends and family to be there. So RSVP! I promise everything won’t be Vegan y’all!

9. More Cousins dates in 2022.

10. Take flowers more to Mama, Mother Dear, and Great Grands sites.

11. Breath. All the time. Sat aside a quiet hour to myself to breath. Meditate. Sit absolutely still. Every day. Every single morning before everyone gets to moving around. 💖

In the meantime, all my followers, supporters, friends, and family, I ask that you guys SHARE MY POST.

Please support me this way by sharing my content! “Hey Kilo Cares” and “Evening Tea With Ki” mean EVERYTHING TO ME!

I don’t want this to be in VAIN. I want my message, my story, my strength, my transparency, my light to shine everywhere it needs to be shined and I need your help to push it!

I have helped so many Women and Men to go within themselves, to see that blinding light within themselves. I know my mission here on Earth is to do exactly what it is that I am doing.

I don’t need the money or the accolades, that’s going to come regardless. I need you guys that see my light to share it so that the folks that need to see and hear me can.

That’s all I got.

Self love bath Recipe:

Epsom Salt

Dried Roses – Love

Sage- Grounding/Protection

White Candle – Surrender

Clear Quartz- Clarity

Strawberry Quartz Crystal- Receive/Reciprocate Love (any pink or green stone will suffice)

Rose Essential Oil – Intention of Love

Lavender Essential Oil – Soothing

Lavender Incense (optional)

Powder Coconut Milk

Directions: Mix Epsom Salt, oils, coconut milk, and herbs in bowl. Add to bath water. Sit your ass in that tub and CHILL.

Play some music and zone the hell out!

Sending love and light y’all!

When you lose your Mama your World goes upside down.

That’s a lifeline that we all need that keeps us grounded and tethered to this World.

Losing my Mama was the hardest thing I’ve dealt with, still dealing with, in my life.

Everyone always says they can’t believe how strong I am when I talk about it.

They don’t realize that I literally have to block myself from feeling it to even speak on it. To speak about her.

I don’t show my emotions about it at all.

This World really doesn’t give us the space or acceptance to truly speak about our pain. Especially our community. Life goes back to normal right?

No. I dealt with Anxiety for 7 years now after losing our Mama.

You get through it. But you never get over it.

I’ve had people try to tell me how I should grieve. That I shouldn’t overshare so it made me silence myself about it.

People telling me, “Everyone loses someone.” Even compared their loss of their bestfriend to the loss of my Mother.

People don’t realize how their lack of empathy can further push people over the edge.

I stayed silent in rage and anger about it all for years.

Therapy helped me get to where I began to open myself up enough to feel it all.

Being true to myself and no longer caring about what anyone had to say set me free.

I’m free to feel it all now.

Tonight “Pain” airs.

I finally speak freely about losing my Mama.

How it’s taught me how to be more empathetic to those who are dealing with pains that I couldn’t begin to understand. I couldn’t walk in their shoes.

And those that think I do or say too much can’t bear walk in mine.

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Even at the height of Marvin Gaye’s career a lifelong suffering of childhood abuse plagued his adult years with feelings of inadequacy, pain, and fear.

Just imagine where his career would have led him had he separated himself from the Father who could never be satisfied because he wasn’t satisfied with himself.

Even after having all the riches in the World, we constantly see Celebs dealing with drug addictions, abuse, financial illiteracy, gun violence, and so much more.

We need to remedy within ourselves the need to feel validated from outsiders. Can’t no one give you joy that’s already yours to begin with.

No one. Not your Mom, Dad, Spouse, no one!

They should only be able to add to the joy that you have already found.

I remember always feeling empty waiting on people to see and understand me. Accept me. Love me. I was caught in reciprocating and receiving love built off of conditions.

As long as I did what they wanted me to do or as long as I was who they needed me to be they loved me. One false move I wasn’t shit and Vice versa. Do you know how often we do this and how much that makes us feel like we aren’t enough?

Our validation should only come within ourselves.

We really are already enough and we have everything within ourselves to be exactly what it is we are designed to be.

We need to see that and understand that joy is already ours. We need to be willing to defend our joy and not allow anyone to steal it away from us. No matter who they are or how much history we may have with them.

How many are honest enough to admit that they to at times feel inadequate?

I’ve been here before for sure.

Day by day y’all.